I really do. So what if they are complete Dorks? They are awesome!!!! I'm not sure what I would do without them....well first off, I would probably be out of a job, seeing as how I am employed by one of them. And I most likely wouldn't be in any movies and that would be sad.
I also wouldn't have all of the inside info of what really goes on at TCBC.
And I most definitely would not be having supper cool birthday parties.
I would be without some pretty sweet music.
And I wouldn't be a Dork. ;{
I would have no one to send me encouraging emails.
I also wouldn't have any one to carry me up hills.
There would be no one to nag about not getting things done.
And Andrew wouldn't have his babe.
Wow, life looks pretty scary without these two great friends. I think I should keep 'em around. :)
Jeremy and Andrew, you guys rock. :) I am so glad we are friends, and so grateful for all that we met. I really don't know what I would do with out you two. (Well, I already went over this.....just look at my list! See how sad it is?)
Thanks for your friendship, employment, and encouragement. :) You are amazing.
Love,
M
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Surrender
My hands hold safly to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen
So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am
Now You're asking me to show
What I'm holding oh so tightly
Can't open my hands can't let go
Does it matter?
Should I show You?
Can't You let me go?
Surrender, surrender You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't You see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me
You say You have a plan for me
And that You want the best for my life
Told me the world had yet to see
What You can do with one
That's committed to Your calling
I know of course what I should do
That I can't hold these dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Will You take them away forever?
Or can I dream again?
Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't You see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me
Surrender
Clutching tightly not one has fallen
So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am
Now You're asking me to show
What I'm holding oh so tightly
Can't open my hands can't let go
Does it matter?
Should I show You?
Can't You let me go?
Surrender, surrender You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't You see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me
You say You have a plan for me
And that You want the best for my life
Told me the world had yet to see
What You can do with one
That's committed to Your calling
I know of course what I should do
That I can't hold these dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Will You take them away forever?
Or can I dream again?
Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't You see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me
Surrender
AAARRGGGHHH!!!!
I'M SO ANGRY!!! I'm just about pissed off at everything and everyone right about now. The world is screwed, I'm screwed, everyone is screwed.
I hate every single one of those girls at ballet, I swear they are the dumbest people I have ever met. I couldn't care less if they all dropped dead. Such idiots!!!!!!
And why? Why does everything always happen to me? How is this fair? ITS NOT!!!!!!! ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR!!!!!!
Why do I spend my whole life wishing, wanting, waiting to go to Russia, and the the chance comes, and I can't go? Why do friends of mine get to go when they don't even want to, don't speak the language, and don't even care?! ITS NOT F@#%^ FAIR!!!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!!
Why can I never be the perfect ballerina that I have always dreamed of? How is it fair that I spend my whole life working to be a professional dancer, then everything gets cut away? Why can't I dance like Gillian Murphy? Yuka Ino? Julie Kent? Allison Roper? WHY???? Why don't I have the perfect feet, perfect turnout, perfect body? ITS NOT MY F@*%ING FAULT I'M NOT BUILT LIKE THE IDEAL BALLERINA!!!!! BUT WHY CAN'T I HAVE THAT BODY? HER FEET? WHHHYYYY?!?!?!?!
Why do I have to give up everything I have ever worked for? All I have ever wanted was to be a prima ballerina. That's all I have ever known, all I have worked for, everything I want to become. For me to throw that all away right now would be waste, right? SO why do I need to give it up to You?? I'm not letting go. Don't You see how tightly my hands are wrapped around this? Do You not see my dreams? My goals? My ambitions? Do You not see how much I want this? Do You not see how hard this is? Do You not see these tears? This anger? This hurt? Do You not see how broken I am? Do You even care??
I am so fed up with everything! To hell with it all.
Nothing ever goes right. All I want right now is for something to go right.
And you wanna know a secret? All I want is to be hugged. That's it. I don't care about anything else, I just long for someone to hold onto me, letting me cry on their shoulder, telling me things will be okay. I know that sounds childish, but I just want someone to hold me.
*Sigh*
Good luck with that ever happening.
I hate every single one of those girls at ballet, I swear they are the dumbest people I have ever met. I couldn't care less if they all dropped dead. Such idiots!!!!!!
And why? Why does everything always happen to me? How is this fair? ITS NOT!!!!!!! ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR!!!!!!
Why do I spend my whole life wishing, wanting, waiting to go to Russia, and the the chance comes, and I can't go? Why do friends of mine get to go when they don't even want to, don't speak the language, and don't even care?! ITS NOT F@#%^ FAIR!!!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!! AAARRGGGHHH!!!!
Why can I never be the perfect ballerina that I have always dreamed of? How is it fair that I spend my whole life working to be a professional dancer, then everything gets cut away? Why can't I dance like Gillian Murphy? Yuka Ino? Julie Kent? Allison Roper? WHY???? Why don't I have the perfect feet, perfect turnout, perfect body? ITS NOT MY F@*%ING FAULT I'M NOT BUILT LIKE THE IDEAL BALLERINA!!!!! BUT WHY CAN'T I HAVE THAT BODY? HER FEET? WHHHYYYY?!?!?!?!
Why do I have to give up everything I have ever worked for? All I have ever wanted was to be a prima ballerina. That's all I have ever known, all I have worked for, everything I want to become. For me to throw that all away right now would be waste, right? SO why do I need to give it up to You?? I'm not letting go. Don't You see how tightly my hands are wrapped around this? Do You not see my dreams? My goals? My ambitions? Do You not see how much I want this? Do You not see how hard this is? Do You not see these tears? This anger? This hurt? Do You not see how broken I am? Do You even care??
I am so fed up with everything! To hell with it all.
Nothing ever goes right. All I want right now is for something to go right.
And you wanna know a secret? All I want is to be hugged. That's it. I don't care about anything else, I just long for someone to hold onto me, letting me cry on their shoulder, telling me things will be okay. I know that sounds childish, but I just want someone to hold me.
*Sigh*
Good luck with that ever happening.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Monday, March 19, 2007
Are you there?
CUZ I'M THERE!!!! You have no idea how joyfull I am right now about so many things, and you may not even understand them all, but it makes me really happy to think about. :) I am there......my place in heaven is already secured, I don't need to worry about anything because I know that the Prince of Peace has my life planned out for me, and has something good planned for my life, I don't need to take controll anymore, I need only to be still. I was teaching on this verse about a month ago for a youth group that asked me to speak there, and this is the out line of what I spoke on. I also gave my testimony, but that's another blog. ;p
Exodus 14:13
"Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring to you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still."
So, what does this mean, and why is it making me so excited? Well, let me break down the verse, and hopefully you will understand like I do. :)
"Do not be afraid."
This is key. God is telling us not to be afraid, because He already knows what is going to happen. And if the King of Kings already knows what is going to happen, why do we always need to be afraid all the time? Why can't we just trust that God will get us through? Do not be afraid. I see this all the time in the Bible, God telling His people to not be afraid, and the reason I think that we keep seeing it, is that God has to constantly remind us to not be afraid. We by nature get afraid all the time, but if we know that Christ is on our side, and will win this battle for us, why do we need to fear? Do not be afraid.
"Stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will bring to you today."
God will deliver us!!! We don't always have to live afraid, in fear, because we know that the Lord will deliver us, He has promised to help us, to never leave us, and He will bring us deliverance. There is hope no matter where in life you stand. God will rescue you from that place! I have seen how Christ has rescuded me from my broken life, and He will do the same for you. Stand firm!
"The Egyptians you see today, you will never see again."
Let's substitute the word 'Egyptians' for whatever it is in our lives that we are scared us, the thing that freaks us out the most, something that we are afraid of. It could be anything. "The___________you see today you will never see again." Meaning that God will take whatever it is you are afraid of, He will take that and make it gone. He will get rid of it. You will never see it again. Jesus washes us clean.
"The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still."
I think that in a culture that encourages us to be bussy all the time, to always have something going on, it's very hard for us to find time to be still. And when we do, that's very awkward. The key word in this verse is 'still.' So many times we ourselves want to fix our problems, we want to fight the battle, we don't want to addmit defeat. But this verse is saying that the Lord will fight for us, if we just back off and let Him fight it for us! The more we try to fight it on our own, the less likely we are of winning that battle. Jesus wants to take this from us, we only need to be still. To quit trying to do it by oursleves, but to let Him fight for us, to shut up and sit down and be still. God has already promissed to fight for us, we need only to be still.
Another verse that makes me think of being still, is Psalm 46:10.
"Be still and know that I am God."
Be still. That dosen't mean spending five minuets reading the Bible before we go to school, it means turn off the iPod, lay down that magazine, get offline, stop watching TV, set the cell phone on sillent, be still. When life is crazy and we are constantly on the go, it is so very hard to hear the small, quiet voice of God talking to us. That's why it says to be still. Then we will know who God is. Once we are still, then He will open up so much for us. Jesus wants to have a deep relationship with you, He wants all of your time, and all of you. Not just five minuets in the morning, not just a little peice of your heart, He wants all of you. Every single bitt. Untill we learn to give Christ our whole heart, He will not begin to start working in us. If we are still holding onto that one thing that we just do not want to give up, we won't really experience the true freedom that Christ offers. Untill we learn to let go, we will still be stuck in the same place, not moving forward, and not moving back.
I AM THERE. And I am so totally excited that I am there! Are you there?
Exodus 14:13
"Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring to you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still."
So, what does this mean, and why is it making me so excited? Well, let me break down the verse, and hopefully you will understand like I do. :)
"Do not be afraid."
This is key. God is telling us not to be afraid, because He already knows what is going to happen. And if the King of Kings already knows what is going to happen, why do we always need to be afraid all the time? Why can't we just trust that God will get us through? Do not be afraid. I see this all the time in the Bible, God telling His people to not be afraid, and the reason I think that we keep seeing it, is that God has to constantly remind us to not be afraid. We by nature get afraid all the time, but if we know that Christ is on our side, and will win this battle for us, why do we need to fear? Do not be afraid.
"Stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will bring to you today."
God will deliver us!!! We don't always have to live afraid, in fear, because we know that the Lord will deliver us, He has promised to help us, to never leave us, and He will bring us deliverance. There is hope no matter where in life you stand. God will rescue you from that place! I have seen how Christ has rescuded me from my broken life, and He will do the same for you. Stand firm!
"The Egyptians you see today, you will never see again."
Let's substitute the word 'Egyptians' for whatever it is in our lives that we are scared us, the thing that freaks us out the most, something that we are afraid of. It could be anything. "The___________you see today you will never see again." Meaning that God will take whatever it is you are afraid of, He will take that and make it gone. He will get rid of it. You will never see it again. Jesus washes us clean.
"The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still."
I think that in a culture that encourages us to be bussy all the time, to always have something going on, it's very hard for us to find time to be still. And when we do, that's very awkward. The key word in this verse is 'still.' So many times we ourselves want to fix our problems, we want to fight the battle, we don't want to addmit defeat. But this verse is saying that the Lord will fight for us, if we just back off and let Him fight it for us! The more we try to fight it on our own, the less likely we are of winning that battle. Jesus wants to take this from us, we only need to be still. To quit trying to do it by oursleves, but to let Him fight for us, to shut up and sit down and be still. God has already promissed to fight for us, we need only to be still.
Another verse that makes me think of being still, is Psalm 46:10.
"Be still and know that I am God."
Be still. That dosen't mean spending five minuets reading the Bible before we go to school, it means turn off the iPod, lay down that magazine, get offline, stop watching TV, set the cell phone on sillent, be still. When life is crazy and we are constantly on the go, it is so very hard to hear the small, quiet voice of God talking to us. That's why it says to be still. Then we will know who God is. Once we are still, then He will open up so much for us. Jesus wants to have a deep relationship with you, He wants all of your time, and all of you. Not just five minuets in the morning, not just a little peice of your heart, He wants all of you. Every single bitt. Untill we learn to give Christ our whole heart, He will not begin to start working in us. If we are still holding onto that one thing that we just do not want to give up, we won't really experience the true freedom that Christ offers. Untill we learn to let go, we will still be stuck in the same place, not moving forward, and not moving back.
I AM THERE. And I am so totally excited that I am there! Are you there?
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